Having completed my first solo wild camped trail, I have rather ambitiously begun this Camps section, in which you can follow (or not) my attempts to conquer my fears and become experienced at wild camping.
Although I have fought not to let aggression towards me as a child determine my present life, the fact that I am back up north has meant that those old fears began to affect all aspects of my life, including my walking. For some years I have used cognitive training techniques to help me to overcome my fears and remain positive. To this end I set myself various large and small targets to master (it doesn’t matter what they are if they matter to you) and then I make a mental list of how I will achieve those targets and I continually appraise my own progress in achieving each aim towards my ultimate goal.
I have been using these techniques for so long that they are totally automatic. I have rarely explained them like this, as I’ve never considered it to be all that interesting to anyone other than myself. The techniques may not work for everyone but they are my ‘work in progress’ which continues in the background whatever else is happening in my life.
I often set targets which challenge or conquer my fears, so I set myself a target to become experienced at wild camping. To achieve that goal, my first aim has been to set myself some hard and fast target/s which would give me a reason to wild camp, and some deadlines to work towards, although my first goal fell through. The second has been to gradually assemble a kit in which I have confidence, and the third has been to devise a game plan in which I progress gradually from bed and breakfasts to wild camping on my long distance trails. The fourth continues to be the advice and support of some people who have been very helpful recently (hopefully they will know who they are). The fifth has been learning to recognise people who are trying to undermine you, under the guise of helping you, because it is your development which matters most in that situation.
I hope these methods may be helpful to some of my readers.
Anyway, my personal experience has led me to believe that we should not put pressure on people who are afraid of outdoor situations. Fear is natural and inevitable at certain times and in certain situations. The truth is that many outdoors people have had experiences which have made them afraid, and it is much more helpful to people with less experience if we can be honest with ourselves and eachother about this. After all, fear performs a necessary function, keeping our senses alert and sharpening our survival instincts.
As the enclosures became virtually non existent at my recent campsites, and circumstances forced me to walk in darkness several times on long distance trails, my fears began to disintegrate, and it became an easier transition into wild camping. The old spectres have hopefully now been replaced by beautiful images of the first rays of the sun hitting the tops of the hills in Upper Coquetdale on a beautiful, if chilly, January morning.